It must be

My friend,
I do know,
A bad mouth I have here,
For so long now,
In fact, too long,
It has caused much pain.

My own fault,
It must be,
That mistakes repeat themselves,
That lessons are never learnt,
That hate grows,
That guilt piles up.

Not trying whole enough,
It must be.
Not caring hard enough,
It must be.
Not feeling deep enough,
It must be.

My friend,
If I were to leave now,
Would you forgive me,
Of all my idiocy?
Of all my carelessness?
Of all my recklessness?
Of all my sins?

Would you?

# I hope it's nice :) I was supposed to be doing my homework actually, but somehow this poem was created. Haha... By the way, thanks A LOT for stopping by my blog ;) #

China ♥ Japan ♥ Manga ♥ Love ♥

Gosh, I really miss China.
To be specific, I miss China during winter.

I was looking back at the pictures of my last trip to Shanghai and everything looked so pretty. The sky is always a light cooling blue (since it was winter, as I told), the landscape relaxes the eyes, the weather is comforting, there are awesome places to shop, the architecture of the buildings are so nice, the surroundings are clean. Hell, I even miss sitting on the train! ( Even though there are times where I had to stand)

I'm not sure why but I think I like winter because I get to wear thick clothes and scarfs :P (There's no winter here in Malaysia, so I think it was my first winter, although there wasn't any snow) I have no idea when I'll get to travel to China again, hopefully soon :) And believe me, if I'm a legal adult now, I would most probably start saving money and plan a trip to China with my friends ;) Wow, it sounds really awesome and tempting to me right now.

The next place which is running through my head 24/7 these days is JAPAN, JAPAN, JAPAN! Yes, I strongly believe that this is the result of excessive Manga, Anime and romantic comics but I don't care! All I wanted is to go to Japan! I don't know when I started becoming such an Asian girl. Before this I'm just thinking of western countries. America? Britain? Paris? London? Canada? Australia? New Zealand? HOLLYWOOD??!! Of course, I still want to go to those places (who wouldn't??), but if I get to choose, lovely Japan would be on the top of my list ;)

If I really get the chance to go to Japan, the first thing I would do is to buy tonnes of Bleach and Dengeki Daisy merchandises! xD For those who are rolling your eyes, I get it. You find these 'Japanese cartoons' a nonsense and fake. (Ouch ouch) But that's because you haven't watched or read them before. Listen to me, just try it once. You won't regret it. I just realized recently that Anime actually involve a lot of feelings. Sometimes you really gotta be old and mature enough to understand the characters' feelings. They might be just pictures with dialogue boxes to you but I look at them as wonderful stories with beautiful drawings :)

Actually...there is another reason why I wanted to go to Japan...I, umm, have a feeling, umm, that my, umm, love, is there. *blushing deeply* Fine, fine! Laugh at me! I'm just a normal girl seeking for love after all :) Imagine having someone's shoulder to sleep on, to have someone hug and protect you (like how Daisy protects Teru :) Shit, here I go again), to have someone who teases you but actually cares about you more than anyone else in the world, to have someone kiss your forehead before going to bed, to have someone who thinks that you're most beautiful even though you're surrounded by millions other prettier girls and to have someone hold your hand and never wanting to let go ♥

I fantasize too much huh? It's okay. As long as he's waiting for me I'll wait for him too.

Ouh, and I gotta read Dengeki Daisy now. I need my daily dose of romance! :P
And Japan, kindly wait for me! I'll be there one day!☺