Choir.MY choir :)

We choir girls are having intense practice now; every morning till assembly ends. Then we have practice during our 20 minutes recess time too. I'm in Soprano 1, so it's Wednesday, Thursday and Friday during recess.

We are certainly improving. Sometimes the beginning is so bombastic. The competition is on the 27th this month and I'm proud of my team. We are working really hard and some us even have to be late for our tuition but we WON'T skip any choir practice. This is because this year we have to win. We just HAVE TO because this is my senior's final year, Naomi.

Haih...What can I say? She has been in the choir team since form 1. She's the pianist and the president this year but she had always been the pianist. I don't know at what age she started learning, but she plays it beautifully. Sometimes when she randomly plays a song, I'll cry a little because it sounds do beautiful. But sadly I can't play it :(

Naomi had a very big impact on us. We obey her more than our conductor, more than our trainer. She'a always there for us and I have no idea how much she had sacrificed for choir. We just have to repay her. And winning it this year is the only way. I don't want her to leave the school feeling so disappointed with us. I posted on my school choir club wall on fb saying that the choir would sound different without Naomi playing the piano next year. She commented that we can do it without her, that she has faith in us. Aww...she's so sweet, right? I'm gonna miss her. I'm gonna miss her scolding us, conducting us and mostly, praising us. She gives us a huge smile every time we've sang wonderfully :)

However, Naomi's not the only senior we're winning this for. I want to win because it's DP's final year too. DP, DP, I'm gonna miss you lots, angel on the stage =P Things would be different without you around. So different. And my dear Sshiva whom is also my recycling group leader. Love ya! Also to my sectional leaders Nanthini and Nanthina. Both of them are the sweetest and cutest twins I've ever met.

So you see, we have to win this year. We have to; and I swear I'll sing my best during the competition. Wish us luck!

Distance

I don't know what is going on between us.

Last time, S used to text me all day long. DAILY. And we could still talk the whole day. We were really close and bonded. I felt as if she's my perfect friend, my sister. But now, things have changed. She still talks to me of course, but lesser. She still texts me, but I always have to be the one who starts the conversation. Sometimes she don't even reply me. Sometimes, we didn't even message each other. Last time we used to message till what? Almost 2 in the morning? Cause we'll be doing homework and we kept each other occupied. Those moments were so fun, I actually even enjoyed doing my projects and homework till late at night cause I'll get to text her. She'll tell me all sorts of stories...

Now? She's sharing less things with me. She talks to me as if she don't want to. Sometimes it's as if she's forced to. Her tone is different. Sometimes, when I ask her things, she'll just reply:"I don't know.....I don't know..." And she sounds frustrated when she answers like that. All I do after that is keep my mouth shut. Things get worse when she's in a bad mood.

I don't know what is happening or what to do. I am never the first one to be called by any of my friends, nor am I the second. In fact, I'm always the last. I don't want this to go on. It hurts, okay? Everyone would have known about the whole big plan, they would have already thought of what to do, and I will be the one who have JUST KNEW about it. If they invite me to go somewhere, I'll always be the last one they're calling. I feel as if they are forced to invite me, as if it would annoy them if I'm there. Can anyone please tell me what is wrong with me? The second last thing I want is to have my friends ditch me.

The last thing I want is me and S drifting apart. How could I live through that? She's my closest friend. My sister.

One more thing, does she care about me as much as I care about her?

Birthday note

My friend's S's birthday was last week. She told me that our friends K and D gave her a cup as a present which they drew something on it. It was 3 stickmen; 2 tall ones standing at the sides of a short stickman. Then they labelled K on top of one of the tall stickmen and D on top of the other one. The middle one was labelled S, which is my friend. We're both short, and people always make fun of us (without offense, no worries) but that cup was so meaningful. I didn't see the cup, S was just telling me how the design was like. And all the time she was talking to me I was just thinking of how lucky she is to have friends who would and could do such things for her.

S also said that K gave a card together with the cup. A hand-made one. She also said that K wrote a story at the back of the card. A funny story. She showed me the card today and I read the story. It went SOMETHING like this:

"Once upon a time, there was a girl named S. She was short. And she was scary when she gets angry. One day, she met a girl named K! K didn't like her, but she prefer sitting with S than another girl. Then they became friends. Now they're best friends."

Aww....^^Well, the story isn't this short. I've just read it once today. The only thing I remembered was the last sentence. Yeah, I cried reading this. Even before I started reading it, even before I hold the card, I knew I was going to cry. Because when a friend writes a story for YOU for your birthday, no matter how funny the story is, you'll end up crying. Cause your friend did it for you, they care for you, they love you and that's why they did it. I told S that I'm lucky I'm not the one who got the note or else I don't know how hard I'll be crying. She just laughed :)

I'll always remember this note though; this story. My friend's birthday note which touched my heart.

A friend's best friend

My closest friend S,came from another school. I still remember asking her,"Do you have a best friend in primary school?" She said:"Yeap, Chinese also." I never knew who that girl is until few days back. S was tagged in a picture with the girl, KY. And KY has been on my friend list for so long. I don't know her though. Then,I texted "S" and asked:"So,KY's your best friend in primary school huh? Finally I knew..." She replied me:"Till now :)" I just started crying, without any specific reason. Maybe it was because of happiness, I'm glad for S cause she's like my dear sister. I think it is also because of envy cause they are still so close after all these years apart. And KY don't even have to try. I'm the kind of person who would constantly text someone just to strengthen our bonds. I always HAVE TO do something to keep friendships alive.

Yesterday was my first time chatting with KY. She's a stranger to me actually, but I started the conversation. And it turns out that she's a really nice person, just like S. No wonder they were and are best friends. And I know that they will always be :) Of course I want to be S's best friend too, but if she's happy, that's always fine with me. That's what friends are for, right? You want the best for each other.

Burlesque Love

Tess : Tell me a lie.

Sean : I need your expert sewing skills.

Tess : Tell me a new lie.

Sean : *Thinks for a moment* I don't love you.

Awww... <3

~From Burlesque, starring Cher and Christina Aguilera~

Another great shock

Two days back my friend "T"called me & told that my another friend "S"'s mother just passed away.I got a shock.I mean,S is just same age with me.But why?Why must all kind people leave us? And why is evil all around?I'd never actually met her mom before but I know she must be a great woman.She died fighting cancer.My friend could hardly accept this.She always knew her mom was sick but she was always so sure that her mom could fight it.However,she lost.Just like my doggy Johnny which I miss so much.I heard my other pals telling that S was suddenly shouting in the middle of the night & crying.I felt really sorry for her but I couldn't do anything at all.I know how painful it must be.Losing a mother.But I know she's watching her daughter from above.I know she wouldn't want to see her daughter crying for her.But no one could ever help it.No matter how serious a physical pain is it can never be compared to emotional pain.Please God, give my friend strength so that she can live her life like she used to be.Although it will never be the same,her mommy will be in her heart forever.

A shock

Why?Why did she do it??? On wednesday, my friend gave a shock to the whole school.She took 14 panadols and drank a cup of coke.She's now admitted in the hospital & had a little liver damage.However,I thank GOD cause the doctor told that her condition is not that serious.By taking medicines she can be cured.... I think she's not in the ICU anymore,maybe in the normal ward.... People said she did it to get her parents' attention.I hope she gets well soon.GOD BLESS HER! =)