Let's celebrate!

Yeay! Tomorrow's Anna's birthday and we'll be going to parade to celebrate! Will be watching Rio too!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANNA!!!!

I LOVE YA SIS! <3

HAVE A BLAST!

A little too loud

Today we had another choir practice. The prefects had a camp the day before-on Saturday and Sunday-so most of them were really tired. Many of them went back including DP. Poor girl, she was sick. Naomi was here of course, she's always here. I think it was around 3:40 when it happened. Melissa fainted.

First I don't know what happened, but then people started calling her name. Some were running to her place, so I looked. She was on the floor, and Naomi was already there to lift her up. Naomi rested Melissa on her body and placed her head on her shoulder. Naomi was actually caressing Melissa as if she's her daughter. Or her baby sister. The whole scene was so sweet that I can't help it but smile. Naomi looked so worried and caring and yeah, the whole thing was kind of touching. I felt that if I'm in Melissa's place, I would feel so safe :) Dahneersha was beside me and I told her:"Aww...Naomi's so sweet...I wanna faint too." Then, NAOMI TURNED AROUND. She smiled (the senget smile) at us! Oh gosh, I was a bit too loud so yeah, that means she heard what I said! >.< THAT WAS EMBARRASSING!

Missing the weird things

I think something is going wrong with me.

I said this because I am missing the weird things. The wrong things. Things I am not supposed to miss cause I'm WAN JO YI. I DON'T miss these things.

Why the HELL am I missing being the president of the Geografi and Sejarah club in my school?

I was the one who was initially pushing the position away. I still remember that day clearly even though it has been more than a year. Pn. Rohayah asked me whether I have been a president before, and I answered no (which is the truth). Actually, Baldeep was supposed to be the president but teacher said no cause she was the head prefect. Pn. Rohayah asked me to be one. She wanted me to try but the thought of me being a president is just, well, not right. I can't be one. Me???ROFL...!! In the end I agreed though, for teacher's sake even though I know I can't be a good one. I know I'll suck at it and unfortunately, I was right.

My whole club was a mess. I don't know what to do and it was probably the worst club in the whole school, including morning session. It's such a disaster and the activities are well, insanely boring. I just don't have any talent in all these planning work. We didn't even have a farewell party in the end of the year cause they don't want it. At first, I am so glad the end of the year came cause I don't have to do anything anymore. Sadly, I changed my mind now.

If I can go back to the past, I swear I'll be a better president. I'll make sure my members have fun cause now I know how pathetic it is when you have to stay back and sit there doing nothing on a Wednesday. So, to my ex-members, I am truly very sorry for ruining the club. I am very sorry for being a lousy president. If I ever get another chance like this in the future, I promise I won't repeat my mistakes and I hope I can be a better leader.

One more thing I miss is when people thought I am responsible. Last time, my name was always suggested for positions. Well, mostly I pushed them away but sometimes I accept them. Now, things have changed. People don't suggest my name anymore for anything. Not even as an AJK. I don't have any positions this year, not in the class, not in the club, not in the games and not in unit beruniform. I felt kinda grateful because I wouldn't have much work to do but a part of me felt useless. People don't give me positions cause they don't trust me anymore. They think I can't do anything. That thought does hurt sometimes. Occasionally, I envy my friends who get lot of work. I know it sounds stupid, but...seeing all the seniors coming to her and asking her to do certain tasks seems cool. People give them work, so that means they trust her. She's always busy with tonnes of jobs, and all I do is sit and watch her. Sometimes I'll help her, thinking that if people can recognize my writing, they might, just might, think that I can do it too.

If I get selected for any position next year, I won't push it away. I realized that I'm lacking of experience. I'm gonna quit school soon. I'm running out of time and I can't repeat what I have done in the past.

This is something I promise to myself. I just hope I'll get a second chance.

Choir.MY choir :)

We choir girls are having intense practice now; every morning till assembly ends. Then we have practice during our 20 minutes recess time too. I'm in Soprano 1, so it's Wednesday, Thursday and Friday during recess.

We are certainly improving. Sometimes the beginning is so bombastic. The competition is on the 27th this month and I'm proud of my team. We are working really hard and some us even have to be late for our tuition but we WON'T skip any choir practice. This is because this year we have to win. We just HAVE TO because this is my senior's final year, Naomi.

Haih...What can I say? She has been in the choir team since form 1. She's the pianist and the president this year but she had always been the pianist. I don't know at what age she started learning, but she plays it beautifully. Sometimes when she randomly plays a song, I'll cry a little because it sounds do beautiful. But sadly I can't play it :(

Naomi had a very big impact on us. We obey her more than our conductor, more than our trainer. She'a always there for us and I have no idea how much she had sacrificed for choir. We just have to repay her. And winning it this year is the only way. I don't want her to leave the school feeling so disappointed with us. I posted on my school choir club wall on fb saying that the choir would sound different without Naomi playing the piano next year. She commented that we can do it without her, that she has faith in us. Aww...she's so sweet, right? I'm gonna miss her. I'm gonna miss her scolding us, conducting us and mostly, praising us. She gives us a huge smile every time we've sang wonderfully :)

However, Naomi's not the only senior we're winning this for. I want to win because it's DP's final year too. DP, DP, I'm gonna miss you lots, angel on the stage =P Things would be different without you around. So different. And my dear Sshiva whom is also my recycling group leader. Love ya! Also to my sectional leaders Nanthini and Nanthina. Both of them are the sweetest and cutest twins I've ever met.

So you see, we have to win this year. We have to; and I swear I'll sing my best during the competition. Wish us luck!

Distance

I don't know what is going on between us.

Last time, S used to text me all day long. DAILY. And we could still talk the whole day. We were really close and bonded. I felt as if she's my perfect friend, my sister. But now, things have changed. She still talks to me of course, but lesser. She still texts me, but I always have to be the one who starts the conversation. Sometimes she don't even reply me. Sometimes, we didn't even message each other. Last time we used to message till what? Almost 2 in the morning? Cause we'll be doing homework and we kept each other occupied. Those moments were so fun, I actually even enjoyed doing my projects and homework till late at night cause I'll get to text her. She'll tell me all sorts of stories...

Now? She's sharing less things with me. She talks to me as if she don't want to. Sometimes it's as if she's forced to. Her tone is different. Sometimes, when I ask her things, she'll just reply:"I don't know.....I don't know..." And she sounds frustrated when she answers like that. All I do after that is keep my mouth shut. Things get worse when she's in a bad mood.

I don't know what is happening or what to do. I am never the first one to be called by any of my friends, nor am I the second. In fact, I'm always the last. I don't want this to go on. It hurts, okay? Everyone would have known about the whole big plan, they would have already thought of what to do, and I will be the one who have JUST KNEW about it. If they invite me to go somewhere, I'll always be the last one they're calling. I feel as if they are forced to invite me, as if it would annoy them if I'm there. Can anyone please tell me what is wrong with me? The second last thing I want is to have my friends ditch me.

The last thing I want is me and S drifting apart. How could I live through that? She's my closest friend. My sister.

One more thing, does she care about me as much as I care about her?

Birthday note

My friend's S's birthday was last week. She told me that our friends K and D gave her a cup as a present which they drew something on it. It was 3 stickmen; 2 tall ones standing at the sides of a short stickman. Then they labelled K on top of one of the tall stickmen and D on top of the other one. The middle one was labelled S, which is my friend. We're both short, and people always make fun of us (without offense, no worries) but that cup was so meaningful. I didn't see the cup, S was just telling me how the design was like. And all the time she was talking to me I was just thinking of how lucky she is to have friends who would and could do such things for her.

S also said that K gave a card together with the cup. A hand-made one. She also said that K wrote a story at the back of the card. A funny story. She showed me the card today and I read the story. It went SOMETHING like this:

"Once upon a time, there was a girl named S. She was short. And she was scary when she gets angry. One day, she met a girl named K! K didn't like her, but she prefer sitting with S than another girl. Then they became friends. Now they're best friends."

Aww....^^Well, the story isn't this short. I've just read it once today. The only thing I remembered was the last sentence. Yeah, I cried reading this. Even before I started reading it, even before I hold the card, I knew I was going to cry. Because when a friend writes a story for YOU for your birthday, no matter how funny the story is, you'll end up crying. Cause your friend did it for you, they care for you, they love you and that's why they did it. I told S that I'm lucky I'm not the one who got the note or else I don't know how hard I'll be crying. She just laughed :)

I'll always remember this note though; this story. My friend's birthday note which touched my heart.

A friend's best friend

My closest friend S,came from another school. I still remember asking her,"Do you have a best friend in primary school?" She said:"Yeap, Chinese also." I never knew who that girl is until few days back. S was tagged in a picture with the girl, KY. And KY has been on my friend list for so long. I don't know her though. Then,I texted "S" and asked:"So,KY's your best friend in primary school huh? Finally I knew..." She replied me:"Till now :)" I just started crying, without any specific reason. Maybe it was because of happiness, I'm glad for S cause she's like my dear sister. I think it is also because of envy cause they are still so close after all these years apart. And KY don't even have to try. I'm the kind of person who would constantly text someone just to strengthen our bonds. I always HAVE TO do something to keep friendships alive.

Yesterday was my first time chatting with KY. She's a stranger to me actually, but I started the conversation. And it turns out that she's a really nice person, just like S. No wonder they were and are best friends. And I know that they will always be :) Of course I want to be S's best friend too, but if she's happy, that's always fine with me. That's what friends are for, right? You want the best for each other.

Burlesque Love

Tess : Tell me a lie.

Sean : I need your expert sewing skills.

Tess : Tell me a new lie.

Sean : *Thinks for a moment* I don't love you.

Awww... <3

~From Burlesque, starring Cher and Christina Aguilera~