Distance

I don't know what is going on between us.

Last time, S used to text me all day long. DAILY. And we could still talk the whole day. We were really close and bonded. I felt as if she's my perfect friend, my sister. But now, things have changed. She still talks to me of course, but lesser. She still texts me, but I always have to be the one who starts the conversation. Sometimes she don't even reply me. Sometimes, we didn't even message each other. Last time we used to message till what? Almost 2 in the morning? Cause we'll be doing homework and we kept each other occupied. Those moments were so fun, I actually even enjoyed doing my projects and homework till late at night cause I'll get to text her. She'll tell me all sorts of stories...

Now? She's sharing less things with me. She talks to me as if she don't want to. Sometimes it's as if she's forced to. Her tone is different. Sometimes, when I ask her things, she'll just reply:"I don't know.....I don't know..." And she sounds frustrated when she answers like that. All I do after that is keep my mouth shut. Things get worse when she's in a bad mood.

I don't know what is happening or what to do. I am never the first one to be called by any of my friends, nor am I the second. In fact, I'm always the last. I don't want this to go on. It hurts, okay? Everyone would have known about the whole big plan, they would have already thought of what to do, and I will be the one who have JUST KNEW about it. If they invite me to go somewhere, I'll always be the last one they're calling. I feel as if they are forced to invite me, as if it would annoy them if I'm there. Can anyone please tell me what is wrong with me? The second last thing I want is to have my friends ditch me.

The last thing I want is me and S drifting apart. How could I live through that? She's my closest friend. My sister.

One more thing, does she care about me as much as I care about her?