Hit by realization

Few days ago, I asked DP whether she would be having a birthday party or not this year. I really wish she would, as this will be the first time I’m celebrating with her. I hope it’s not the last, but who knows? When she leave the school, what are the odds that I might see her again, right?

Anyway, she said no. When I asked her why, she said she’s “lazy to cut cake all”. Typical Malaysian English :P

It’s a very acceptable reason, since it was given by Dheephikha Kumaraguru, so I just let it go.

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All along, I knew that she’s very close with Sevita. Sevita is also my senior, but she’s one year elder than DP. She left the school last year. However, I don’t know that DP is that close with her until I read her old statuses on Facebook and also her posts on her blog.

There was one status of DP’s which said that Sevita’s her angel, just like how I call her as my angel. She means a lot to DP, and it’s really obvious. Her last post was during the few final days of school last year, and she blogged about how her school life is going to be next year. I know that by the end of this year, I will blog about the exact same thing. Only worse.

After Sevita left the school, she practically stopped blogging. Her post ended in October 2010.

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That day I called Sevita to ask her something. I can’t tell you what I asked her because this Dheephikha knows my blog address and she has been threatening me to tell her what I asked Sevi for many times :P Well, I was..amazed at how much Sevita knows about DP. It makes me embarrassed and left out. There are just so many things that I don’t know about her.

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Today I chatted with her on FB. I asked her: “How the hell did you cope when Sevita left you?” I wanted to know how, so that I’ll have some preparations for next year. She said that they still meet up once every week, in the temple maybe. But DP told me that Sevita will be leaving soon for her studies and well, she “don’t know lah”. I know it hurts a lot for her to type that out. It must be, since I feel the pain too when I’m the reader.

After reading her blog only I realized that DP don’t want to have a birthday party not because she’s “lazy to cut cake all”. She don’t want to celebrate her birthday without Sevita.

It’s just my guessing anyway. Maybe she has her own reasons. But still, I don’t think I would want to celebrate my birthday too if the one I loved and cared for the most will not be around.